I started this journey a very tired, unsure person. Two failed marriages, two beautiful daughters and a very tormented soul. Do I leave for good? Do I stay in SA?
Here I am only two months and a few days later, a totally different woman (no, not different, but ME again at last). Why?....Stornoway, Turkey, Spain, Sardinia, Florence, Rome, Barcelona, Cannes, Gibralter, Ireland and of course UK........ I have been alone at times, lonely at times, afraid at times, Euphoric at times.... BUT, I have learned so much about myself. I don't jump when the phone rings or when I get an email that upsets me.. I am able to truly be myself. Sheila is back (is that good?). The people I have met... The people who thought I was so very brave - thankyou for those words.(and I thought I was MAD). I am so contented. I want a HOME, I want walls and floors again. I am coming home. The decisions I needed to make have been made. I am ready to appreciate the quality of life I have and to embrace it all fully. It sometimes takes us to walk away and look more clearly at our lives, our childrens lives and to be honest about the future that we want.
Each one of you that has followed my blog knows the part you have played in my healing and my acceptance of who I am and what I need.
I know very well that the journey continues... ups and downs and I am ready for it. Ready to live my authentic life... good and bad. The mistakes I make will be mine and not the mistakes of someone elses needs or wants.
So.... Thank you for reading my blog and sharing my journey.
I will add photos as soon as I find my cable!! hahhahahahaha - nothing changes.
xxxxx
Sheila
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Sile (gaelic)
xxxxxxx
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
From hangover to happiness !
I will bring my blog up to date tomorrow - promise...
Photos and lots of summing up of 2 months and 2 weeks.
xx
Photos and lots of summing up of 2 months and 2 weeks.
xx
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Back to UK ----- My head hurts.
Flew back on Ryan Air (say no more ) to UK... I felt so sick. Truly disgusting hangover.
Wednesday 19th May....
Jo Jo picked me up and I took the opportunity to tap in to her expertise. A new business card logo and a powerpoint backdrop!! Thanks Joanne, everyone loves it.
Started on the vino colapso with Val sitting in the garden. The off to the Queens for a glass or two. We met her pal Roger. A fascinating guy who officiated at the first ever SA elections in 1994.
Had a great supper of crab claws... no complaints there...
Then Emer and Frank popped in and Maro from next door.... more drink and great Craic!!
xx
Started on the vino colapso with Val sitting in the garden. The off to the Queens for a glass or two. We met her pal Roger. A fascinating guy who officiated at the first ever SA elections in 1994.
Had a great supper of crab claws... no complaints there...
Then Emer and Frank popped in and Maro from next door.... more drink and great Craic!!
xx
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Sunday, Monday and the sun
We lazed around (I think). Went to lie on the beach for a little while. It was breezy and so quiet compared to when we were here in August.
It was lovely though.
Sunday was very stressful for me and Eileen. The ash cloud caused Eileens Monday flight to be cancelled completely and I was stressing as the cloud was terrible and Marge and I didn't know if we would get back on Tuesday.
Rouen is coming on Friday and I have shows booked and all that so I was quite tense.
All was well though and Eileen got on to our flight.
We had a great night on Monday as we went to the harbour. Kylie and Ciwi will remember the resturant we went to on the last night of my 50th.
Then we had a great time at the black stove. I asked for Human / Dancer to be sung and Keith took the p... out of my accent "Human or Daaaaaaanca" mmmm I do sound a bit posh at times... a good laugh.
Arrived back. An early night and now I have not got off the email/blog for hours.
Alan made us a wonderful roast pork supper and an early night.
Joanne is fetching me shortly and I'm off to Val and Paddy's for tonight then back to the UK tomorrow for a weekend of being a tourist.
xx
It was lovely though.
Sunday was very stressful for me and Eileen. The ash cloud caused Eileens Monday flight to be cancelled completely and I was stressing as the cloud was terrible and Marge and I didn't know if we would get back on Tuesday.
Rouen is coming on Friday and I have shows booked and all that so I was quite tense.
All was well though and Eileen got on to our flight.
We had a great night on Monday as we went to the harbour. Kylie and Ciwi will remember the resturant we went to on the last night of my 50th.
Then we had a great time at the black stove. I asked for Human / Dancer to be sung and Keith took the p... out of my accent "Human or Daaaaaaanca" mmmm I do sound a bit posh at times... a good laugh.
Arrived back. An early night and now I have not got off the email/blog for hours.
Alan made us a wonderful roast pork supper and an early night.
Joanne is fetching me shortly and I'm off to Val and Paddy's for tonight then back to the UK tomorrow for a weekend of being a tourist.
xx
Loule and the market
We had hangovers galore but had booked to go to the Market in Loule. So, up at sparrows...Not sure why we didn't take the car, but anyway, we got a coach which stopped at every fecking hotel and more. It took us 2 hours there and 2 hours back. The market wasn't really worth it, but we did it and learned from it !! Eileen got a great dress and we ate yummy donuts... so that in itself was worth it hahahahaha
So many lovely places to eat that I actually can't remember where we went. I think it was for a lovely pasta and pizza at Lusitania.
Having such good laughs with Eileen and Marje. Marje can talk her head off and is the only person I know that can make a short story long (yes Marge, that is you!! hahahahahha). Eileen has the weirdest Irish sayings that I had totally forgotten but are now back in my vocab) e.g. Very Gnick (means it is fab).
If someone is UGLY, then the comment is " I would not ride him in to battle!"... say no more.
Or.. if he is very ugly, the comment would be " I wouldn't sleep with him with Your fanny, let alone my own"..... It could have been worse I suppose!
So many lovely places to eat that I actually can't remember where we went. I think it was for a lovely pasta and pizza at Lusitania.
Having such good laughs with Eileen and Marje. Marje can talk her head off and is the only person I know that can make a short story long (yes Marge, that is you!! hahahahahha). Eileen has the weirdest Irish sayings that I had totally forgotten but are now back in my vocab) e.g. Very Gnick (means it is fab).
If someone is UGLY, then the comment is " I would not ride him in to battle!"... say no more.
Or.. if he is very ugly, the comment would be " I wouldn't sleep with him with Your fanny, let alone my own"..... It could have been worse I suppose!
Friday in Alvor
aaaaah... Memories memories of my 50th birthday.
Marge's apartment is lovely and has a great garden.
It wasn't to warm, so off we went in to Alvor.
A few wines/vodka's latter and the various subjects/comments flowed.... Vagina's, orgasms and the female anatomy... Lets just say I will leave it at that shall I?
We had a lovely supper (monk fish kebab??) at a resturant in Alvor and ended up at an Irish pub called The Black Stove. Keith is the regular singer there and I think Marge had heard him sing a thousand times before, be we had a great night.. dancing away!!
Marge's apartment is lovely and has a great garden.
It wasn't to warm, so off we went in to Alvor.
A few wines/vodka's latter and the various subjects/comments flowed.... Vagina's, orgasms and the female anatomy... Lets just say I will leave it at that shall I?
We had a lovely supper (monk fish kebab??) at a resturant in Alvor and ended up at an Irish pub called The Black Stove. Keith is the regular singer there and I think Marge had heard him sing a thousand times before, be we had a great night.. dancing away!!
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