I started this journey a very tired, unsure person. Two failed marriages, two beautiful daughters and a very tormented soul. Do I leave for good? Do I stay in SA?
Here I am only two months and a few days later, a totally different woman (no, not different, but ME again at last). Why?....Stornoway, Turkey, Spain, Sardinia, Florence, Rome, Barcelona, Cannes, Gibralter, Ireland and of course UK........ I have been alone at times, lonely at times, afraid at times, Euphoric at times.... BUT, I have learned so much about myself. I don't jump when the phone rings or when I get an email that upsets me.. I am able to truly be myself. Sheila is back (is that good?). The people I have met... The people who thought I was so very brave - thankyou for those words.(and I thought I was MAD). I am so contented. I want a HOME, I want walls and floors again. I am coming home. The decisions I needed to make have been made. I am ready to appreciate the quality of life I have and to embrace it all fully. It sometimes takes us to walk away and look more clearly at our lives, our childrens lives and to be honest about the future that we want.
Each one of you that has followed my blog knows the part you have played in my healing and my acceptance of who I am and what I need.
I know very well that the journey continues... ups and downs and I am ready for it. Ready to live my authentic life... good and bad. The mistakes I make will be mine and not the mistakes of someone elses needs or wants.
So.... Thank you for reading my blog and sharing my journey.
I will add photos as soon as I find my cable!! hahhahahahaha - nothing changes.
xxxxx
Sheila
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Sile (gaelic)
xxxxxxx
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And those of us who love you - hope that this second half of your life will bring you contentment and peace. There are bound to be ups and downs but you will be responding to them as you and not as the person you think you should be. My love, as always, goes with you.
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